&I don't understand why there's no music video for this song. Enjoy the music & simply ignore this lame video. Thankyou. (:
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Words from Before It's Too Late by Goo Goo Dolls.
&SHUT THE HELL UP.
你所給的是連你自己都無法解釋的理由
寧靜的夜裡少了你
似乎變得有點孤單寂寞
也許到頭來
我們還是回到了原來的現實
Moodless, i took the 913 home yet alighted at the wrong stop. Like totally what the fuck. In the end, i had to walk home alone without any stars as my companion for like freaking 20min and had a gastric pain. Not to mention, the cars and bicycles that seem to hate me really much tonight wanted to bang me straight to hell. Yeah, how i wish.
I hate myself; it was a mistake from the start.
Whatever it is, Just fuck tonight.
TALK, TALK & TALK! -.-
The beautiful work by the sun's ray.
COCONUTIVES on the bus! (:
ANCIENT BEN, SIHUI, CRYSTAL.
ACTING CUTE.
AFTER SHOWER, PRETTY NORMAL AMELIA; SIHUI; CRYSTAL.
THEN.. WE BECAME SOME ZHENZI-.-
TOTALLY PUFFED UP!
CRYSTAL, SIHUI, AMELIA, AMANDA & SERENE. Just trying to keep up with the latest trend of phototaking.
AMANDA & SIHUI.
TWINIES, SERENE & SIHUI.
GROUP PICTURE, JUST AFTER PLAYING. Ignore the horrible hairstyles please!
So, yesterday was 28april2007.
The usual clique went to celebrate my birthday early at WWW. Yeah, so met upand headed down to Downtown East. It was a long journey, and it made me kinda carsick-.- But anyway, tried practically everything there.
-Samsung U-Slideup with Amelia&Crystal. Screamed like crazy lah.
-Ulah-lar for 6times or so, just to get a perfect picture but in vain. The damn camera either failed to capture all our faces, or didn't click, or we aren't ready. What the hell.
-The PurpleSlide where we took off our tops, leaving us only with bras. Yeah, what an experience. The guys weren't there obviously, haha. And the worst thing was, i got stuck in the middle of the slide which was pitch-dark? Like wtf, i had to push myself down. Freaked me out.
-Wavepool, really like what Amanda said. Seasick-.- But it was really nice though, reminds me of last year's class gathering. The damn red float practically killed me when my head is stuck-.-
-ShiokRiver was really nice, with all those man-made currents that pushed you along. Thanks to Junhe&Ben for capsizing my float again and again.
-SkyRider, no we didn't play there. We think that's lame, although the girls spotted a handsome up there riding that. HAHA.
-The Playground and Yakult thingy, just so cool lah.
Ended playing, and washing up till 7.30pm and headed to Changi Village for dinner. Dinner was rather fine though, and the travel journey was really long=.=
ENDING PICTURE OF THE POST. (:
SO after this celebration, i guess it's time to mug really hard to catch up with schoolwork.
FRIDAY.
PaperOnes on friday was pretty alright. But i think I'm not gonna score for English because mine was totally crap. For chinese, it should be much better. HAHA. (: Then it started to rain really hard, so we had to hide under 614. And we were being attacked by these creatures. GROSS LIKE ANYTHING-.-
Had Dinner with Aunt; Brother&Me bring retarded.
God, i'm down with flu, soreeye, sorethroat and cough. Just too great timing-.-
Goodbyebyebyebye! (:
因為我又再次落淚了
心裡真的找不到一絲的快樂
留下的也只有悲傷
Yes, this is me on the dentist chair(?) or whatever you name that chair. (:
And this is pretty Jolene before she went for her checkup.
So happy that i'm down with a flu currently when Papers 1 is just tomorrow-.- Sneezing and those stupid tissues are by my side whenever i need them. I think any sooner, my nose is gonna drop off cause i can't stop rubbing it. ARGH. Going crazy soon~
Yeaps, so today after school. I don't know why I feel like listening to 'Guo Min' by Rainie. And no one has this song. Out of nowhere, Jasper just put his phone beside my ear and play this song. I'm like, wow. Felt kinda touched lah~ Hahaha.
Hai, I just don't know what got over me. For instance, i woke up in the middle of the night, crying for an hour before returning to bed-.- It's just that type of feeling, that made you feel so .... Maybe i'm just under depression, whatever lah.
So uninterested to carry on with today's post. Totally not in the mood for exams, not in the mood for celebrations, not in the mood for everything. But perhaps in the mood for more crying and moaning bah.
GOODLUCK FOR ALL PEEPS.
(:
A smile that keeps me going everyday..
It's raining when the sun is actually out in the sky? But i seem to prefer this weather, where the sun feels so warm and kind, whereas the tiny rain droplets fall gently ever so beautifully..
Look at the reflection of the plants, don't you find it so nice?
It's such a nice day today with the companion of laughter and fun, and most importantly- i love the weather. But despite the weather, i'm feeling rather down. Well, i'm in such a loss. And i can't believe that Papers 1 are starting this damn friday. Like so fast? -.-
Feeling ever so neglected.
或許太習慣你的不存在
所以對你的再次出現
有著許多的疑惑
我們的
歷史可能就是已定的未來
能從演
或者是從前的回憶
來怀念
你要我如何相信
相信這眼前的一切?
明明知道那是千萬個不可能
但卻選擇自欺欺人
也許唯有這樣才能好過一點吧
SATURDAY.
My sister, brother and i went to Vienna buffet restaurant to eat, damn expensive lah. For three person, it's hundred over bucks. Goodness, but my sister's the one paying cause it's suppose to be my god-damn-early birthday celebration? Haha, thanks sister.
Headed for Bugis to get some stuffs. So we alighted at Khatib, and bumped into some familiar peeps. So we were like heading to the busstop, then my sister thought that the bus behind is 858, and ran like some wind. My brother followed suit, and so did i. But when we reached the busstop, we realised it was 969. Like what the hell? So damn embarrassing lah, the whole busstop was like starring at the three of us=.=SUNDAY.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, COOLSTYLE! (:
which i don't think he'll see, anyway-.-
MONDAY.
It started off with a rather happy tune, because everyone seems pretty happy? Including me, but for some reasons. Haha. Lessons as usual, nothing great in particular. Except for Mr Pek's wonderful lecture during Mathematics class. He suddenly called -Crystal, Sihui, Ben, Ruting, Grace, Jolene and who? Don't know lah, just out of the class.
And started saying what we bullied teacher and ate in class? But those who ate kept after the relief teacher told him to what, so what's wrong with him leh? And he somewhat insisted that i ate when i'm actually reading the newspaper?! So bloody pissed off that i answered him, "If looking at the food is considered eating, then i looked at the tree that means i eat the tree is it?" Can see he was really frustrated with the bunch of us, but WHO CARES? Not me=.=
Caught the MEET THE ROBINSONS with my sister and brother at Yishun.
It's pretty nice, by the way.
Sense of belonging seems to have vanish.
Everything just doesn't seem the same.
Are we just for some laughter and fun?
Tell me, what are friends for?
What's the meaning of FRIENDS?
So that's all for yesterday, i guess.
TODAY.
I'm running a fever, so i didn't go to school. And surprisingly, Yihchyuan is sick today too! He's also having a fever, LOL. What a coincidence.
BE GONE.
Lazy to type, so it's gonna be a picture post today! (:
Be glad that your eyes are spare from my wordy post once more! Hahaha.
GRACE. Please do ignore the mad yet cute girl behind trying to steal the limelight. LOL!
Mad yet cute girl- RUTING.
BLUR KAITING. Get well soon!(:
Pretty JOLENE(:
shy KAIREEE! Heeeeeeeeee.
weird-looking VEROCK!
handsome HAFIZ!! (:
And presenting, my three infamous dishes. The spaghetti looks like it's for EIGHT SERVINGS man-.- God.
NAPFA TEST- 2.4km run
Big Family.
Just before the run. (:And this year's NAPFA 2.4km run is a total wreck. But oh well, forget it. Position 18, worst of the worst.
NO MOTIVATION = NO MOTIVATION.
Like no motivation can run fast like that? -.-
So take it easy, and try harder next year! (:
Lastly,
I LOVE MY
No.154 COOLSTLYE!
MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
I don't think i wanna carry on hanging in mid air,
WISH ME LUCK THAT I WON'T FALL ASLEEP HALFWAY THROUGH!!
AND I'M, OH SO EXHAUSTED LAH~!
-.-
Seeya guys!
You never know how sucky you were.
You thought all doesn't matters.
You don't care bout others' feelings, only yours.
You always think that you're right.
Let me tell you,
YOU'RE ONE SELFISH FREAK.
i'm starting to feel lonely.
i don't know why.
your existence doesn't seems to matter anymore.
perhaps it's time,
that caused the distance between us..
HAHA, FIND THIS PICTURE SO ADORABLE! (:But anyway, today went to cook the 3dishes and whatsoever. Didn't take picture of them, because they taste somewhat horrible but still edible lah!
At amanda's house.
Just after buying those ingredients! (:
We're done with the BSSP! YAY. One more homework off my workload! I've finished another SS Inerview and also History Graphic Organizer too! Just too great, however i'm awfully worn out today lah~~ Tomorrow going to pray my grandmother, and hopefully i'll get to complete half of my remaining homework bah.
YAWNS.........
GOODNIGHTS, EVERYBODY! (:
IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY~!
OH FUCK.
Don't take me for some fucking trash.
Besides that, our group was finally done with the presentation yesterday, on Superstition. Damn, i think it's not really well done. But anyway, tried our best le. So let it be.
Mdm Sue was so adorable today! I mean today was all bout finishing those corrections, filings, etc in class. So she suddenly remembered our class Interview project and Social Studies Project! She asked the class, 'Who has done the project?' and it's like complete silence. Lol, and she even laughed to herself for this? Find her expression so funny, haha. But anyway, she kept on extending those datelines though she kept on commenting that our class is more terrible than 3B-.-
International Friendship Day tomorrow!
Didn't i say it's gonna be a short post? Seems pretty long to me. Haha, think i've got to go for some serious business and head for my beauty sleep once more.
NAPFA test- five stations TOMORROW TOO! Oh man, i can't jump that stupid standing board jump! Why? Why? Why?
SIANZATION.
You changed.
He changed.
She changed.
Everyone changed.
Did i change?
Perhaps i should give in.
Perhaps i should have close an eye to everything.
Perhaps i shouldn't even poke my nose into any thing.
Perhaps, it's time for me to give up.
I hate that feeling of losing something, i hate changes.
I had enough, i should just mind my own business.
Maybe one day you'll know how i feel, maybe you won't.
But i just can't be bothered anymore.
Ben was right, somethings that's lost, can't be retrieved back forever.
Will our 'friendship' be one of that somethings?
Oh fuck.
P.S.*Loy, cheerups! (:
JAVIER, amanda's little brother(: SO CUTE!
Reached home at 1.50am.This survey must have a valid answer.answers like dunno or not sure are notallowed. answers must be honest. READY? let's go!
#01. Would you mind if your boy is fat?
`Hmm, fat? A little plump is acceptable, but must be fit obviously. I love sports, you know=.=
#02. Would you want your boy to do house chores?
`Pretty obvious, i want badly. I hate doing house chores, though i'm a girl.
#03. What is the maximum age gap you and your boy can have?
`Never younger than me, and 4years older than me is the limit.
.#04. Would you mind if your boy smokes?
`Smoke? You can call him go to hell lah.
#05. Must he get good grades?
`Depends. But prefer grades better than mine, so he can teach me rather than the other way round?! Like DORTS! -.-
#06. A muscular/mature guy or a childish/cute guy?
`CHILDISH/CUTE guy! Cause i had to admit, i'm childish too. HAHA.
#07. Must he be popular to suit you?
`So popular for what bloody use? Attract unwanted girls' attention? Do you think i'm dumb or what?
#08. Would you allow your boy to join gang?
`If can, of course not. But no choice, take it by my stride loh and pray hard others won't hack him into pieces.
#09. Must he have perfect eyesight?
`Not really, since contacts lens are available now. But of course, perfect eyesight will be great! (:
.#10. Must he be perfect in everything?
`Like any being on earth is perfect? Don't be silly. His perfection will bring out all my weaknesses more obvious can?
#11. Will you be furious OR worried if your boy gets into trouble with the DM?
`More towards worried, but i don't really mind. DM only, what's the bloody big deal?
#12. Must he be taller than you?
`Anyone will be taller than me?! But minimum 168cm? By the time i wear heels, we'll be compatible already what. HAHAHA.
#13. What is the first thing he attracted you?
`Perhaps first impression, his eyes and smile. BUT, definitely his character. (:
#14. Does how much he loves you matter or as long as you love him is enough?
`BOTH. But i will rather he loves me MORE so will pamper me like mad, HAHAHA. However, in this case, 'i love him is enough'.
#15. Would you allow your boy to show tantrums on the elderly or worthy of respect?
`Weird phrasing of question. Well, both also doesn't matter. Like who cares?
#16. What if your boy's ex still loves him?
`Do you think i'll give a freaking damn bout his ex when i'm with my boy? LAME.
#17. Which of his character or looks will make you leave him?
`Attituded, bad-tempered, vuglarities, irritating, over-sensitive, boring, petty, violent, flirtatious, hypocritical. I feel it all adds up to a BASTARD.
#18. Must you be his first girlfriend?
`Nope, don't see the need. Besides, he may be ignorant of things that a boyfriend should do. So i'm fine with not being the first. Last one will be wonderful, HAHA.
#19. After marriage, must you be together or follow him back to his country?
`Don't mind which and which, cause this question doesn't make sense to me.
#20. What will you do if his friends bully him?
`He shouldn't be such a weakling in the first place, for goodness sake. BE A MAN. However, i'll bully his friends back, or drag him along to do so too. C'mon, they should get a taste of their own medicine. Lalalala.
.#21. What is the most important thing you seek in your guy?
`Everything is important. Security, humorous, romantic, thoughtful, pameper me, etc. LOL, damn demanding.
#22. Would you rather your boy be a studious or bad boy kind?
`If i've to really choose, bad boy perhaps. Studious will be fine, not to the extend of nerd though! Average of both kinds, best(:
#23. What if your good friend likes your guy?
`That shows how attractive my guy is, HAHA. Let her carry the torch till she's tired then, but don't try to seduce my guy. =.= But if i'm unconfident of this relationship, perhaps breakup will be the last resort.
Finally, I'M DONE~~!
YAY.
BORING lessons; mathematics. MrPek spoke to me today regarding bout my work attitude. So it was the same thing again, and i shall try to pay attention during mathematics lessons. Well, at least that's what i promised him. You know why? Because when he asked me if i can pay attention during his lessons and not read readers digest anymore, i replied PERHAPS=.= It's not like it's within my control. But of course, i did try to do TWO sums though. (: And i got it right, not too bad. Good try, Sihui.
Then is, HISTORY QUIZ AT INNOVA JC.
I looked pretty GROSS. but whatever~
Sports Day tomorrow, but i managed to escape from the individual races since i don't have the confidence like i had last year. However, i still had to run for 4X400m relay. No choice either. Wish me Luck(: hheeeee.
GOODBYE!
[Seee, I'm proud of CCHYCO!]
=.= Yes, i know perhaps many schools had already gotten Gold for SYF before,but this Gold is extremely important and meaningful to us. Those that will be having their last SYF (Like ME!), those Sec4s that will be 'retiring' from CCHYCO, those teachers that had put in great efforts especially MdmTeo, those instructors that placed high hopes on us.. Those days, those times, it's everything that we had shared together. As one, as a whole, as an orchestra.
We have prove to others that we do have the ability to do it, and now, of course we can hold our heads high above, walking as though there's wind blowing, and be proud to say:
"I'M FROM CCHY CHINESE ORCHESTRA."
[I'm awfully overjoyed, but Crystal was Erm.. not really happy?]
Just like what Amelia posted in her blog, I'm like seriously freaking nervous because there's alot of portions whereby my instrument is the melody of the song. I can feel the pressure on me, and on many other peeps like Qimian, Dorothy, etc. I'm glad that those parts that we were dreadful of turned out perfectly great, although i must say, i still prefer YihChyuan to blow the Solo instead of Dorothy. She did a fine job though(: Felt really upset for YihChyuan, but it's over anyway..
[YihChyuan & Me; You're forever the BEST!]
I still remembered clearly, when we were outside waiting for our turn to perform, my sectional teacher said to ZhaoBaobei's wife who had also came to help out. "This is our school's best liuqin player, she's really good." and she patted my shoulder as though giving me a unusally huge boost of confidence. When i'm in my primary school, my teacher never did this to me because she never liked me before. Well, all i know was when i went up onstage, i told myself, 'I'm gonna make both my school and teachers proud."
[Grabbed from Junhe's blog, so tiny..]
And i did it, but not with my individual effort, of course. The GOLD belongs to everysingle one of us. Although it was really saddening that JunHong didn't manage to perform with us, because he had a high fever out of nowhere. But i'm sure, his spirits and his words on Friday still rings in my ears. (:Cheers for JunHong!
[COCONUTIVES; way too cool.]
Dedication to Shauna; Closeclose.
Hey closeclose, i'm gonna miss you so much when you 'retire' from CCHYCO. I was wondering how life is gonna be when there isn't you to chat, to fool around, to play, to tease, to laughoutloud, etc. So many bits and pieces of memories we had for the past three years, for the two SYFs, for the boring yet so interesting practices, for all the gossips and heart-to-heart chats, and loads more. You'll never be replaced, even when the someone else sits at your place next year. I'll always bear in mind that,
Shauna, my closeclose, once sat there with me, and she'll stay in my heart until the end of time.
Loves!! (:
(sorry if it sounds like you're going to leave this world=.=)
Though an asshole almost ruined my SYF morning by screaming, i shall just give it a miss for i think it's not worth to be highlight in my post.
o3o42oo7, shall be marked.
P.S. Can't believe i cried while typing this post, lol. EMO-.-
Monday- Rehearsal for SYF.
Tuesday- SYF.
Wednesday- Boring School, what else?
Thursday- Sports' Day.
Friday- Shopping Spree, hopefully?
Some thoughts, some words, some feelings..
Keeping silence doesn't mean i don't know, or i don't care.
Being an outsider, makes everything looks so crystal clear.
Sometimes, i thought i knew who you're.
But perhaps, i don't afterall.
Maybe, perhaps, who knows?
I'm beginning to forget our past.
In life, you have to fight for what you desire.
Empty vessels make the most noise, how true.
What's the use of empty talks and promises,
when you don't even to make an effort and achieve it?
None can help you, but only yourself.
Make yourself priceless, not worthless.
But somewhat, it seems like you've been reducing everything to meaningless.
Living for like decades in one lifetime, you're bound to make countless of friends.
But you know, only some will be with you for a lifetime.
Though being for friends for few years, friendships are still as fragile.
A few years ties and bond, may only vanish into memories.
Strangers, friends, buddies, besties.
Sure things in life do works this way, but also in another way too.
Besties, buddies, friends, strangers.
Does everything on earth have to be a cycle?
Alright, shall end my post here.
GOODBYE!